Work has been stressful the past few months. And now, some things are happening in the office which is just making me feel uncomfortable. My boss has lost trust in me, for God knows what reason (even his wife doesn't know why!) and it is hard for me. I don't like and don't feel comfortable to work in an environment like this - its hard for me because now I keep second guessing myself and keep trying to figure out what it is I did to make my boss not trust me. The reason he gave was due to an ex-mgmt staff who lied to us and left us a small mess, so now he finds it hard to trust all management team members. But I find that hard to accept because 1) it wasn't that big of an issue to cause this reaction, 2) that guy was with the company for 1 year and I have been here for almost 4 years!, 3) I have never done anything to give reason to distrust me.
It is frustrating for me. I know I shouldnt be focusing on the negative and just do my work but it isn't easy. I used to feel like a part of the family at the office, but now I just don't feel comfortable anymore... it is very sad.
And of course there is the stress of my studies. I am doing Comparative Law and Team Leadership this semester. I have one leadership assignment due this Friday, the Law online test due on Tuesday, 3 law essays to finish by mid October and another 2 leadership assignments due in 2 weeks and in one month respectively!!! Yikes!!
Then... yes there is more!!! My back is giving me trouble again!!! EEEEEEE!!! I cant exercise - Well I didnt for 6 weeks but on Sunday and yesterday i just went on the treadmill for half an hour. I could only walk, not jog or run but the pain does intensify after so I can't do it everyday. This is so irritating! Just walking from my office to Subway (which is a 3 or 4 min walk) really flared up the pain. This is annoying.
My health - I took the blood and urine tests last weekend and also did ultrasounds and an ECG. The test results I will get this weekend. The ECG was fine. The ultrasound had a bit of concern so I will know more with the blood test results.
I need to destress!!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Unbelievable
It is just hard to comprehend... Kireen is dead. How can this be?
Kireen is my moms cousin. From what I can gather, she drove to Ipoh where her mom lives, she said she feels funny and then she suddenly collapsed. They rushed her to the hospital.
We got the call earlier that she was in ICU and on life support and just a short while ago, we got the news that she has gone home to be with the Lord.
It really is a shock. She was fine. She wasn't sick. She is still young. Only in her 40s. Her son Joseph is like only 6 years old I think.
I just don't know what to say....
Kireen is my moms cousin. From what I can gather, she drove to Ipoh where her mom lives, she said she feels funny and then she suddenly collapsed. They rushed her to the hospital.
We got the call earlier that she was in ICU and on life support and just a short while ago, we got the news that she has gone home to be with the Lord.
It really is a shock. She was fine. She wasn't sick. She is still young. Only in her 40s. Her son Joseph is like only 6 years old I think.
I just don't know what to say....
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Finally!
It has been awhile since I have blogged. I have been busy but then I guess that is just an excuse!
Anyways, updates. I finally went to church on Sunday! It has been more than 5 months!
I have been at a cross road. Should I go back to Grace or should I move to CHC? I knew in my heart that I didn't want to go to CHC and after checking myself and praying, I finally had the peace in my decision to go back to Grace. After all, I didn't have problems there.
It's time for me to stop backsliding and get my spiritual life back on track. Yes I have said that many times but I have to really do it!
Ivan and I went for a prayer meeting yesterday at Dataran Prima. It is done by a Nigerian pastor, Pastor Samson Dabas. Sometimes I had difficulty understanding his accent but the session was great. The anointing was really powerful in the air and I felt charged and uplifted. Even though we were there at 7pm and left at 11pm, it was worth it. And even though I had to get up very early this morning for bootcamp, I wasn't tired!
So talking about bootcamp. It is great. I mean it is torturous but it is good exercise for me, and God knows I need the exercise. They are having a graduation drinks thingy this Saturday at Souled Out. Rayna and Ivan are coming with me. It should be interesting.
I am also enjoying kickboxing. Of course there is still the lazy part of me fighting against it - this is something that I have to overcome.
Work sucks! Honestly! I don't know. I don't know if i'm just tired of this job, or just frustrated with the issues or maybe just tired of working altogether!! haha how I wish I could strike a multi million dollar lottery and quit working!
I have started another blog www.strugglinghippo.blogspot.com This blog is to talk on issues with regards to weight, and give tips on health and exercise.
I hope it encourages people.
Anyways, updates. I finally went to church on Sunday! It has been more than 5 months!
I have been at a cross road. Should I go back to Grace or should I move to CHC? I knew in my heart that I didn't want to go to CHC and after checking myself and praying, I finally had the peace in my decision to go back to Grace. After all, I didn't have problems there.
It's time for me to stop backsliding and get my spiritual life back on track. Yes I have said that many times but I have to really do it!
Ivan and I went for a prayer meeting yesterday at Dataran Prima. It is done by a Nigerian pastor, Pastor Samson Dabas. Sometimes I had difficulty understanding his accent but the session was great. The anointing was really powerful in the air and I felt charged and uplifted. Even though we were there at 7pm and left at 11pm, it was worth it. And even though I had to get up very early this morning for bootcamp, I wasn't tired!
So talking about bootcamp. It is great. I mean it is torturous but it is good exercise for me, and God knows I need the exercise. They are having a graduation drinks thingy this Saturday at Souled Out. Rayna and Ivan are coming with me. It should be interesting.
I am also enjoying kickboxing. Of course there is still the lazy part of me fighting against it - this is something that I have to overcome.
Work sucks! Honestly! I don't know. I don't know if i'm just tired of this job, or just frustrated with the issues or maybe just tired of working altogether!! haha how I wish I could strike a multi million dollar lottery and quit working!
I have started another blog www.strugglinghippo.blogspot.com This blog is to talk on issues with regards to weight, and give tips on health and exercise.
I hope it encourages people.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
A challenge
I lost weight!! 1.7kg this week. I am happy :-) I guess adding the exercise after so long made a difference. But not enough cms lost so have to work on that.
The economy is challenging and I am definitely being affected in not a good way. But I just have to keep remembering that I am a faithful tither and I am a child of God, and no circumstances can bring me down and whatever happens to the world will not affect me as long as I hold on to my faith in God and leave all things in his hands.
I just got to keep reminding myself of that and just keep praying for the Strenght to fight all the doubts and fear and worrying that comes to my mind so easily.
I will prosper and I will rise up!
AMEN!
The economy is challenging and I am definitely being affected in not a good way. But I just have to keep remembering that I am a faithful tither and I am a child of God, and no circumstances can bring me down and whatever happens to the world will not affect me as long as I hold on to my faith in God and leave all things in his hands.
I just got to keep reminding myself of that and just keep praying for the Strenght to fight all the doubts and fear and worrying that comes to my mind so easily.
I will prosper and I will rise up!
AMEN!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Be positive
I am going to be positive and put all my efforts into my work, my diet and exercise and God this week. I am not going to let anything get me down and I am going to do my level best to be a motivator, an educator and a friend.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
take it slow
I have been overdoing it with my movements and trying to exercise... today I was sitting on the couch and suddenly i had really sharp pain shooting from my lower back down my thighs. It was so painful and I couldnt move for awhile.
I know its my fault. I have to take it slow with the exercise even though I desperately want to lose weight faster. So i just need to slow down and be more careful. I don't want to end up suffering the way I did last month... I can't afford any more time away from work or not being able to do much...
I know its my fault. I have to take it slow with the exercise even though I desperately want to lose weight faster. So i just need to slow down and be more careful. I don't want to end up suffering the way I did last month... I can't afford any more time away from work or not being able to do much...
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Weight
Shirley came today. I only lost 0.8kg... and I hardly lost cms either!! i feel lousy !!!!! eeeeee!! My current weight is 95.7kg.
How am i going to achieve my first goal of being 89kg by June 20th at this rate? That means I have 6.7kg to go in 6 weeks.
It really sucks.. but I know that I cannot let that allow me to slip.
Today we went for a farewell lunch as it is Tracy's last day. I had grilled fish with white sauce and steamed vegetables and plain black tea. I didnt have breakfast. I will be having my TCD soup for dinner.
Lorraine lost about 2 kgs! I am so happy of her. She has been working really hard and the results are showing. It's great. She had the same meal as me and after lunch the two of us and Mawar walked up the 3 floors to the office...
I am definitely going to go on the treadmill when I go home.. Need to go down to at least 94.5kg by next week. So that means more discipline!
Work sucks. So many issues with the Philippines office - I'm so pissed off with the people there. I'm getting tired with the non-stop issues that keep arising both in the KL and Philippines office. In the KL office its all about immature, childish, people with non stop politics. I am so sick of it! Why can't people just come to work, do their jobs and go home? EEEEEEeeeee
I so need to be financially independent so that I can become a full time house wife or maybe get a job where I can work from home. That would be great!
How am i going to achieve my first goal of being 89kg by June 20th at this rate? That means I have 6.7kg to go in 6 weeks.
It really sucks.. but I know that I cannot let that allow me to slip.
Today we went for a farewell lunch as it is Tracy's last day. I had grilled fish with white sauce and steamed vegetables and plain black tea. I didnt have breakfast. I will be having my TCD soup for dinner.
Lorraine lost about 2 kgs! I am so happy of her. She has been working really hard and the results are showing. It's great. She had the same meal as me and after lunch the two of us and Mawar walked up the 3 floors to the office...
I am definitely going to go on the treadmill when I go home.. Need to go down to at least 94.5kg by next week. So that means more discipline!
Work sucks. So many issues with the Philippines office - I'm so pissed off with the people there. I'm getting tired with the non-stop issues that keep arising both in the KL and Philippines office. In the KL office its all about immature, childish, people with non stop politics. I am so sick of it! Why can't people just come to work, do their jobs and go home? EEEEEEeeeee
I so need to be financially independent so that I can become a full time house wife or maybe get a job where I can work from home. That would be great!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Progress
I was waiting for Shirley to come and weigh me today so that I could update but unfortunately she got into a car accident nearby my office and so had to cancel the appointment. Gosh I feel so bad for her.
But i am also a bit happy because I know that I have probably not gone down this week. So next week I better lose a lot!
Rayna and I are starting the Kelloggs K challenge to see if they are actually genuine in what they say. Basically on their box they are asking people to take the 2 week challenge where you have the Kelloggs K for 2 meals with low fat milk ( 1 serving size) and eat 1 normal meal and you can drop 1 jean size in 2 weeks.., So i am going to experiment and see if its true. This starts tomorrow!
Tonight I am going to indulge in a Krispy Kreme doughnut. Ivan and Rayna bought it on Monday but I have been resisting eating one. Tonight I will have one!! bad bad bad girl!
I am going to start going on the treadmill today onwards. I cant go fast or for too long but hey 15 minutes of walking at a speed of 1.9 is better than not moving at all right?!
I need to be strong. I find myself being tempted and starting to go down the downward path that i usually go after a certain period of dieting so I have to stop myself and pull myself back unto the right path. That's why I am so insistent on watching the Biggest Loser every night. It is inspiration for me and keeps me motivated.
I am forcing myself to drink lots of water everyday. It is not easy.. I hope that it will soon become a normal habit for me.
Lorraine is doing well. She is getting a lot of exercise and I can see that she has lost a bit of weight. I am happy for her. She is trying her best to resist temptations and I am proud of her for that.
So updates on the MBA - well I went to Segi Kota Damansara and filled up the form for transfer to the Subang Jaya campus. They asked me to send them my updated resume (which i sent today) and they need new copies of my degree cert and transcripts. Oh gosh... that I am having trouble with because I have no idea where they are! Once they have all that, then they will apply to USQ to see if they will allow me to transfer to their program from my previous one under USC without having to start over. I have done 3 or 4 subjects already. I don't want to repeat those!!
Mama is getting better but still having pain so needs to limit her movements. She called me earlier. She has been feeling funny and she ended up throwing up. I asked Ivan to go over and keep an eye on her. He is planning to cook dinner for her and Rayna so told him to cook there straight away.
I am glad tomorrow is a holiday. I just want to rest and relax. Saturday is going to be a busy day of running around getting stuff done.
Till the next time
But i am also a bit happy because I know that I have probably not gone down this week. So next week I better lose a lot!
Rayna and I are starting the Kelloggs K challenge to see if they are actually genuine in what they say. Basically on their box they are asking people to take the 2 week challenge where you have the Kelloggs K for 2 meals with low fat milk ( 1 serving size) and eat 1 normal meal and you can drop 1 jean size in 2 weeks.., So i am going to experiment and see if its true. This starts tomorrow!
Tonight I am going to indulge in a Krispy Kreme doughnut. Ivan and Rayna bought it on Monday but I have been resisting eating one. Tonight I will have one!! bad bad bad girl!
I am going to start going on the treadmill today onwards. I cant go fast or for too long but hey 15 minutes of walking at a speed of 1.9 is better than not moving at all right?!
I need to be strong. I find myself being tempted and starting to go down the downward path that i usually go after a certain period of dieting so I have to stop myself and pull myself back unto the right path. That's why I am so insistent on watching the Biggest Loser every night. It is inspiration for me and keeps me motivated.
I am forcing myself to drink lots of water everyday. It is not easy.. I hope that it will soon become a normal habit for me.
Lorraine is doing well. She is getting a lot of exercise and I can see that she has lost a bit of weight. I am happy for her. She is trying her best to resist temptations and I am proud of her for that.
So updates on the MBA - well I went to Segi Kota Damansara and filled up the form for transfer to the Subang Jaya campus. They asked me to send them my updated resume (which i sent today) and they need new copies of my degree cert and transcripts. Oh gosh... that I am having trouble with because I have no idea where they are! Once they have all that, then they will apply to USQ to see if they will allow me to transfer to their program from my previous one under USC without having to start over. I have done 3 or 4 subjects already. I don't want to repeat those!!
Mama is getting better but still having pain so needs to limit her movements. She called me earlier. She has been feeling funny and she ended up throwing up. I asked Ivan to go over and keep an eye on her. He is planning to cook dinner for her and Rayna so told him to cook there straight away.
I am glad tomorrow is a holiday. I just want to rest and relax. Saturday is going to be a busy day of running around getting stuff done.
Till the next time
Thursday, April 23, 2009
A new beginning
I have been doing some soul searching and I have finally FINALLY come to a decision that I will let NOTHING and NO ONE.... really NO ONE, not even people who I consider close friends and who turn on me for no reason ever get me down again EVER.
I have for so long been getting advise from my hubby and family and some friends not to let these nasty, gossipy, vindictive and childish people affect me and so after the affair gossip bullshit, I spent some time in my thoughts and on April 12th, I came to that conclusion - that the only thing I should care about is not about whether my colleagues or supposed "friends" are happy with me or like me or whatever, but that first and foremost, that I am right with God and secondly, my husband and thirdly, my family.
I felt such a huge burden lift off my shoulders after that decision and the next week which was last week, when someone at the office who is supposed to be my good friend turned around and accused me unfairly without even knowing the facts and also got angry and showed her true colours because she did not like me telling her; even though it was put very nicely; that I did not like something she had said to me as I felt it was as if she was disrespecting me as the boss; ..... well it didn't affect me at all..
Previously, I would have been hurt and upset by thate, but the amazing thing is that I wasn't! The only thing is even though I have come across many cases of people not knowing where to draw the line between work and friendship, well I was surprised in this case because this was totally unexpected from this person who I have seen as a good friend for so long. And I found it so funny that the person that she has bad mouthed about many times previously was the first person she went too see to bitch about it.... and did some of the same things this person has done before which she laughed at her for!! I had a good laugh about that.
So I am glad that God has helped me to not get affected about all this. And I have learned my lesson - AGAIN and I hope for the last time - to be friendly with people at work but to not be friends with them.... again it reinforces to me why I only have a small group of very good friends that I trust with knowing every single thing in my life - because no matter what happens - I know that we can always count on each other. My best friend B...we met when we started working together years ago. And we used to have disagreements at work - and we would fight - but then after that we would be back to normal because we knew how to differentiate work issues with personal issues and we never let one affect the other. So no matter how many times we got pissed off with each other with work issues or got told off about mistakes or wrong doings or whatever, we could still go for lunch and hang out after work and on weekends with no malice, no hard feelings and no issues because we knew how not to cross the lines... That is why we ended being best friends.
I miss Bobo. I called her yesterday and we had a nice talk. She thought it funny that when I am on MC and at home, I don't call her but when I am at work, I can call her :-) I am a bad friend for which I apologised. I miss her and I am looking forward to seeing her in a few weeks. It is her daughters 1st birthday party on the 9th of May so I am going to go and spend time with them. I am looking forward to that; definitely!
I truly have joy in my heart. I have been feeling very happy these past 2 weeks. While circumstances are not perfect in my life; but I have so much blessings too and so much to be thankful for. So I can honestly say that I am happy and I am going to constantly remind myself of the blessings and joy in my life and try to be a blessing to others.
I hope that all my loved ones will also keep the flame of Joy and Love alive in their hearts!
I have for so long been getting advise from my hubby and family and some friends not to let these nasty, gossipy, vindictive and childish people affect me and so after the affair gossip bullshit, I spent some time in my thoughts and on April 12th, I came to that conclusion - that the only thing I should care about is not about whether my colleagues or supposed "friends" are happy with me or like me or whatever, but that first and foremost, that I am right with God and secondly, my husband and thirdly, my family.
I felt such a huge burden lift off my shoulders after that decision and the next week which was last week, when someone at the office who is supposed to be my good friend turned around and accused me unfairly without even knowing the facts and also got angry and showed her true colours because she did not like me telling her; even though it was put very nicely; that I did not like something she had said to me as I felt it was as if she was disrespecting me as the boss; ..... well it didn't affect me at all..
Previously, I would have been hurt and upset by thate, but the amazing thing is that I wasn't! The only thing is even though I have come across many cases of people not knowing where to draw the line between work and friendship, well I was surprised in this case because this was totally unexpected from this person who I have seen as a good friend for so long. And I found it so funny that the person that she has bad mouthed about many times previously was the first person she went too see to bitch about it.... and did some of the same things this person has done before which she laughed at her for!! I had a good laugh about that.
So I am glad that God has helped me to not get affected about all this. And I have learned my lesson - AGAIN and I hope for the last time - to be friendly with people at work but to not be friends with them.... again it reinforces to me why I only have a small group of very good friends that I trust with knowing every single thing in my life - because no matter what happens - I know that we can always count on each other. My best friend B...we met when we started working together years ago. And we used to have disagreements at work - and we would fight - but then after that we would be back to normal because we knew how to differentiate work issues with personal issues and we never let one affect the other. So no matter how many times we got pissed off with each other with work issues or got told off about mistakes or wrong doings or whatever, we could still go for lunch and hang out after work and on weekends with no malice, no hard feelings and no issues because we knew how not to cross the lines... That is why we ended being best friends.
I miss Bobo. I called her yesterday and we had a nice talk. She thought it funny that when I am on MC and at home, I don't call her but when I am at work, I can call her :-) I am a bad friend for which I apologised. I miss her and I am looking forward to seeing her in a few weeks. It is her daughters 1st birthday party on the 9th of May so I am going to go and spend time with them. I am looking forward to that; definitely!
I truly have joy in my heart. I have been feeling very happy these past 2 weeks. While circumstances are not perfect in my life; but I have so much blessings too and so much to be thankful for. So I can honestly say that I am happy and I am going to constantly remind myself of the blessings and joy in my life and try to be a blessing to others.
I hope that all my loved ones will also keep the flame of Joy and Love alive in their hearts!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
hmmmmm
So the past week plus has been ok I guess. I was happy to be back at work but waking up early sucks man!! But so much nonsense to deal with in the office this week...
Latest news is that I am supposedly having an affair with my boss!! God the things people come up with! It amazes me how there are so many petty and vindictive people in the office who definitely don't have social lives because all they ever do is spread malicious gossip about people.... why they get fun and entertainment out of that I don't know but I pity them - because obviously they have sad, pathetic lives and have nothing else to enjoy or look forward too..!
I lost only 0.3kg this week but at least i lost lots of cms so its not so bad. Except yesterday I feasted on a tupperware full of my mum in laws famous ikan bilis sambal... so very unhealthy! But i love it!
Lorraine is joining me on the TCD diet so it won't be so lonely for me. I really am thankful that God has brought her into my life (yes you Lorraine!!).. I couldnt have asked for a better friend to have. You amaze me all the time with your kindness and caringness and selflessness. Burke is a really lucky man and I am a lucky person to have you in my life!!
OK im getting a bit emo here aren't I?
So my hubby has gone to Penang for one night with Jason.. I called him yesterday and he was in a very good mood... not surprising since he had just finished a bottle of sake :-) It still amazes me how much I miss him everytime either I or him go away.... even if its only for one night!
Ivan has been "lecturing" me about me not spending time with my friends for so long. I have a very very small circle of close friends because I find it hard to trust people and let them get close to me. But even then, with work and all, I have not been spending time with them. I haven't seen Bobo since her baby girl was born a year ago!! And I haven't seen Jean in a few years! I'm glad I got to catch up with Devan, Dharmain and Jason V and Loraine Lingam recently. So i need to seriously start making an effort to go see people.. I guess I have become too comfortable just hanging out with Ivan's friends....or maybe i'm just lazy.. I sure am a sorry excuse for a friend!!
Anyway, I stayed at the hospital with Mama and Rayna last night. Aunty Rosa and Eddie came to visit. Eddie is bugging me about finishing my MBA and he is coming again tonight and we are going out for dinner so I need to give him some information ... sigh.... I told him we will go to Ben n Nicks for dinner. I like the environment and the food there.
I am glad it is Friday.. i hope the day goes by fast
Latest news is that I am supposedly having an affair with my boss!! God the things people come up with! It amazes me how there are so many petty and vindictive people in the office who definitely don't have social lives because all they ever do is spread malicious gossip about people.... why they get fun and entertainment out of that I don't know but I pity them - because obviously they have sad, pathetic lives and have nothing else to enjoy or look forward too..!
I lost only 0.3kg this week but at least i lost lots of cms so its not so bad. Except yesterday I feasted on a tupperware full of my mum in laws famous ikan bilis sambal... so very unhealthy! But i love it!
Lorraine is joining me on the TCD diet so it won't be so lonely for me. I really am thankful that God has brought her into my life (yes you Lorraine!!).. I couldnt have asked for a better friend to have. You amaze me all the time with your kindness and caringness and selflessness. Burke is a really lucky man and I am a lucky person to have you in my life!!
OK im getting a bit emo here aren't I?
So my hubby has gone to Penang for one night with Jason.. I called him yesterday and he was in a very good mood... not surprising since he had just finished a bottle of sake :-) It still amazes me how much I miss him everytime either I or him go away.... even if its only for one night!
Ivan has been "lecturing" me about me not spending time with my friends for so long. I have a very very small circle of close friends because I find it hard to trust people and let them get close to me. But even then, with work and all, I have not been spending time with them. I haven't seen Bobo since her baby girl was born a year ago!! And I haven't seen Jean in a few years! I'm glad I got to catch up with Devan, Dharmain and Jason V and Loraine Lingam recently. So i need to seriously start making an effort to go see people.. I guess I have become too comfortable just hanging out with Ivan's friends....or maybe i'm just lazy.. I sure am a sorry excuse for a friend!!
Anyway, I stayed at the hospital with Mama and Rayna last night. Aunty Rosa and Eddie came to visit. Eddie is bugging me about finishing my MBA and he is coming again tonight and we are going out for dinner so I need to give him some information ... sigh.... I told him we will go to Ben n Nicks for dinner. I like the environment and the food there.
I am glad it is Friday.. i hope the day goes by fast
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Happy
I am still at home.. or rather at Mama's place. I went to see Uncle Vijiyan at the hospital yesterday. I stood for more than half hour and the pain just kept getting worse. Finally a nurse took me into his room to lie down on the bed. Not sure what happened but instead of coming at 9.30am, he came at 12pm! I think there was some patient emergency or something.
So anyway, uncle said I cant go back to work yet because sitting and standing hurts. So i am on MC until Monday and will see him on Monday again and then go back to work on Tuesday..
Everytime while I work, I yearn for a day off, but now, i wish I was at work... stupid me!
Good news for me though.. Shirley came for my weigh in today. I lost some more weight.. so in total since the 23rd of March I have lost 4.5kgs!! Yay!
My goal is to lose 1.5kg every week until June 20th which is KY and YC's wedding. I want to wear my brown dress (the one I wore for my tea ceremony). I can't fit into it now so I have to lose weight!
I have Lorraine as my partner.. we are going to help each other out and both look good at KY and YC's wedding! Right now that I am at home, Ivan and Rayna are making me healthy meals and im on a diet - but no exercise of course...!
I need all the strenght and willpower to do this...
So anyway, uncle said I cant go back to work yet because sitting and standing hurts. So i am on MC until Monday and will see him on Monday again and then go back to work on Tuesday..
Everytime while I work, I yearn for a day off, but now, i wish I was at work... stupid me!
Good news for me though.. Shirley came for my weigh in today. I lost some more weight.. so in total since the 23rd of March I have lost 4.5kgs!! Yay!
My goal is to lose 1.5kg every week until June 20th which is KY and YC's wedding. I want to wear my brown dress (the one I wore for my tea ceremony). I can't fit into it now so I have to lose weight!
I have Lorraine as my partner.. we are going to help each other out and both look good at KY and YC's wedding! Right now that I am at home, Ivan and Rayna are making me healthy meals and im on a diet - but no exercise of course...!
I need all the strenght and willpower to do this...
Friday, April 3, 2009
hmmm
So its been awhile and dear Lorraine told me to blog.. :-)
Remember all the back pain I suffered for 3 weeks in Feb? Well i basically wasted my time going to the chiropractor. The accupuncture I dont regret because they helped reduce the swelling but I finally found out the reason for the pain.
I took my mom to SJMC on Saturday (28th March) because something happened to her. She had severe pain in her back and leg and couldnt walk on her leg and she was throwing up the whole night. So we took her to the ER. While waiting for the doctor (who is also my Uncle) to come, my back pain just kept getting worse and worse. I couldnt sit, I couldnt stand, so i was basically bent over leaning on my moms bed in the ER.
So i ask my uncle for a jab and then lie down on a bed for awhile but after half an hour, there is still no relief. So my uncle says that I have to get an MRI scan, gives me another stronger jab and asks Ivan to get me admitted.
That was at 10 something in the morning. I was left in the ER until 4.30pm because the hospital was full and they couldnt get me a room! In between the technician came and took me for the MRI. I had a panic attack because I felt my arm brush against the side of the machine and then I stupidly opened my eyes. It really felt like I was inside a coffin. The technician had to take me out of the tunnel and give me awhile to calm down and then he agreed to take me out every 5 minutes (after each slide).
So anyway, I hate being stuck in hospitals. It sucks. Ivan and my mom in law came that night and the rest of the time I was alone. The next day, my uncle says that I cant go home because the scan showed that I had 2 slipped discs in my back and i was a borderline for surgery.
I ended up being stuck in hospital until Thursday! Lorraine came twice to visit and she was really great! Aunty Sharm and Dhanisha came, Aunty Narindar came, Melissa and Intan came, then on Wednesday, Tracy, Mei, Jessica and Jun and then Wayne, Eric and Mawar came to visit. Of course my darling father came every day. Rayna couldnt come because she had to take care of mama and Shayna n KP were too busy with work :-(
So anyway, today is Saturday. I am staying at my moms place for a few days because its a condo so I dont have to walk up and down stairs.
However, I have been moving about which I shouldnt be doing and the pain is bad. I have to be a good girl and just stay in bed but its hard. I guess its a good thing Uncle kept me in the hospital that long. Actually to be honest, I feel now (even though I was in cloud nine when he said I could go home on Thursday), that I should have stayed in the hospital another day or two. At least I wouldnt have moved much.
Oh well.... I have been working from home. Su Leng and Cynthia came over for a few hours yesterday for a meeting. I dont think Lawrence is too happy with me being out of the office.. sigh
On a brighter note, Jason Victor came to visit me yesterday. I havent seen him in soooo long so it was good to catch up. I cant believe that we have been good friends for 12 years now..
I am feeling alone, and lost, and worried... I feel like I dont have many people that I can talk too and be myself with and share my thoughts with. I miss Bobo. I havent seen her in one year! Once my back is healed, I am so going to meet up with her..
ok my back is hurting.. im signing off now
I was glad they came because I was going crazy being alone!
Remember all the back pain I suffered for 3 weeks in Feb? Well i basically wasted my time going to the chiropractor. The accupuncture I dont regret because they helped reduce the swelling but I finally found out the reason for the pain.
I took my mom to SJMC on Saturday (28th March) because something happened to her. She had severe pain in her back and leg and couldnt walk on her leg and she was throwing up the whole night. So we took her to the ER. While waiting for the doctor (who is also my Uncle) to come, my back pain just kept getting worse and worse. I couldnt sit, I couldnt stand, so i was basically bent over leaning on my moms bed in the ER.
So i ask my uncle for a jab and then lie down on a bed for awhile but after half an hour, there is still no relief. So my uncle says that I have to get an MRI scan, gives me another stronger jab and asks Ivan to get me admitted.
That was at 10 something in the morning. I was left in the ER until 4.30pm because the hospital was full and they couldnt get me a room! In between the technician came and took me for the MRI. I had a panic attack because I felt my arm brush against the side of the machine and then I stupidly opened my eyes. It really felt like I was inside a coffin. The technician had to take me out of the tunnel and give me awhile to calm down and then he agreed to take me out every 5 minutes (after each slide).
So anyway, I hate being stuck in hospitals. It sucks. Ivan and my mom in law came that night and the rest of the time I was alone. The next day, my uncle says that I cant go home because the scan showed that I had 2 slipped discs in my back and i was a borderline for surgery.
I ended up being stuck in hospital until Thursday! Lorraine came twice to visit and she was really great! Aunty Sharm and Dhanisha came, Aunty Narindar came, Melissa and Intan came, then on Wednesday, Tracy, Mei, Jessica and Jun and then Wayne, Eric and Mawar came to visit. Of course my darling father came every day. Rayna couldnt come because she had to take care of mama and Shayna n KP were too busy with work :-(
So anyway, today is Saturday. I am staying at my moms place for a few days because its a condo so I dont have to walk up and down stairs.
However, I have been moving about which I shouldnt be doing and the pain is bad. I have to be a good girl and just stay in bed but its hard. I guess its a good thing Uncle kept me in the hospital that long. Actually to be honest, I feel now (even though I was in cloud nine when he said I could go home on Thursday), that I should have stayed in the hospital another day or two. At least I wouldnt have moved much.
Oh well.... I have been working from home. Su Leng and Cynthia came over for a few hours yesterday for a meeting. I dont think Lawrence is too happy with me being out of the office.. sigh
On a brighter note, Jason Victor came to visit me yesterday. I havent seen him in soooo long so it was good to catch up. I cant believe that we have been good friends for 12 years now..
I am feeling alone, and lost, and worried... I feel like I dont have many people that I can talk too and be myself with and share my thoughts with. I miss Bobo. I havent seen her in one year! Once my back is healed, I am so going to meet up with her..
ok my back is hurting.. im signing off now
I was glad they came because I was going crazy being alone!
Friday, March 27, 2009
A New Path
I need something new in my life. A new job... Well not a whole new job since I dont want to leave Comfori now but I mean something on the side.. to earn extra money.
The economy is affecting our business and in turn affects my income. I am struggling now. My credit card bills are increasing and my savings account is depleting.
I need a 2nd income - I need to clear off my debts and save money.... anyone have any ideas??
The economy is affecting our business and in turn affects my income. I am struggling now. My credit card bills are increasing and my savings account is depleting.
I need a 2nd income - I need to clear off my debts and save money.... anyone have any ideas??
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Long time
It has been a month since I last blogged. I was super busy getting ready for NY, and then enjoying NY and then catching up with work after that.
Ivan has been sick since we came back.. the change of weather I guess. We went up to Gentings on Sunday and back today. The cold is nothing after being in NY!
Work has been annoying for me... seriously.. i guess its the stress from the PHilippines office screwing things up and then people in the KL office who are either very childish, or egotistical or lazy or just.. irritating! Why cant people just grow up and learn to work together and stop trying to put others down and acting like the King of the World!
Sadly i notice lately that I am getting more and more disillusioned with work... I wonder if this is the place for me anymore.. this is sad for me because I thought that Comfori was where I finally belonged but lately i just feel like I have to drag myself to work everyday. Well, i have felt this before when i was going thru the shit of having people attack me and make up vindictive lies about me but i always got over that.. but now, its been a few months and I still feel the same way.
All I want is to be able to do my job and work with people and just go on with life but there are people who are not happy unless they are picking on others or always getting their way, putting down others or spreading fall gossip about others. Why why why?? Is it so hard to go to work and do your job and have fun? Why must they keep doing this?
After 3 years of this kind of crap here, I am getting tired. Tired of the fight and struggle. Everytime we solve one issue and get past the damage, another person comes along to cause more problems. And it is never ending. And I dont feel like I have the support from the one person in the office i need it from - in fact the trouble maker seems to get the support. And it is hard. And unfair.
Ok I am rambling. Signing off. Hopefully i am in a more positive mood the next time I blog
Ivan has been sick since we came back.. the change of weather I guess. We went up to Gentings on Sunday and back today. The cold is nothing after being in NY!
Work has been annoying for me... seriously.. i guess its the stress from the PHilippines office screwing things up and then people in the KL office who are either very childish, or egotistical or lazy or just.. irritating! Why cant people just grow up and learn to work together and stop trying to put others down and acting like the King of the World!
Sadly i notice lately that I am getting more and more disillusioned with work... I wonder if this is the place for me anymore.. this is sad for me because I thought that Comfori was where I finally belonged but lately i just feel like I have to drag myself to work everyday. Well, i have felt this before when i was going thru the shit of having people attack me and make up vindictive lies about me but i always got over that.. but now, its been a few months and I still feel the same way.
All I want is to be able to do my job and work with people and just go on with life but there are people who are not happy unless they are picking on others or always getting their way, putting down others or spreading fall gossip about others. Why why why?? Is it so hard to go to work and do your job and have fun? Why must they keep doing this?
After 3 years of this kind of crap here, I am getting tired. Tired of the fight and struggle. Everytime we solve one issue and get past the damage, another person comes along to cause more problems. And it is never ending. And I dont feel like I have the support from the one person in the office i need it from - in fact the trouble maker seems to get the support. And it is hard. And unfair.
Ok I am rambling. Signing off. Hopefully i am in a more positive mood the next time I blog
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Happy Valentines Day!
Yesterday, Ivan and I met up with Dharmain, Devan, Ben and Lorraine at TGIF's in Sunway Pyramid. THe initial plan was to have dinner there and then go to Rainforest for dinner. In the end, we ended up hanging out in TGIF until they closed.
It was fun. We havent hung out in a long time and I haven't seen Devan since my wedding in 2007!!! So it was good to meet up and hangout again like the good old days. Too bad dear Jason couldn't make it.
Loraine and I started out with huge frozen margaritas - Melonberry flavor which was pretty good. Then we moved on to a couple of tequila shots and then mojitos. Ivan had 4 beers and got a bit high.. he made the night quite fun with his funny stories and nonsense talks :-)
Biggest mistake I made, I sat for almost 4 hours - only getting up once to go to the ladies. Even with the pain, I just pushed it aside. So what happens? Well, today is Valentines Day and I have absolutely spoilt my darling's surprise for me... Why? My back pain today was even worse! I almost passed out this morning dragging myself to the bathroom. The pain was so intense and it spread down my right leg. When I tried to walk, of course I have to use my right leg, I saw stars... It was pretty pretty bad.. ! I called hubby (who was on his way back from Slim River) crying! I just kept praying and asking GOD for his Strength and Healing. I managed to drag myself downstairs and just stuffed a slice of the daging salai so that i could down my meds. The painkillers helped a bit - thank God!
So anyway, Mama and Rayna came over. Rayna had to take pictures for an audition for some ad so Ivan took the pictures for her. It was quite funny seeing her carrying Mama! After a couple of hours, we went out for lunch. We went to this new Japanese restaurant, Rakuzen in SS15. There are 4 Jap restaurants in a row - I have no idea how they make business with such stiff competition! Anyway, it was a good choice. The food was good and even the desserts were good. I had to stand a few times because of the pain but I made it through.
After that, Ivan dropped Mama and I off at the chiropractors while he and Rayna went to Carrefour. Gosh.. after the first 30 minutes of the treatment, getting off the bed was torture. Mama had to help me up and the pain was so bad again. I had to hold on to the wall as I slowly inched my way to the doctors room... and there the torture continued. Doctor Andre had to adjust my back and press on my sore areas... I literally screamed a few times!
Doc says I have to stay off my feet and lie down and rest my back so he has told me that I have to stay home the next few days - so I wont be going to work on Monday and Tuesday... sigh.. I have so much to do!!! :-( He said the fact that I have been going to work, sitting in chairs for long hours and going out has of course delayed the healing...yeah I know I am an idiot!
So anyway, I have to stay put the next few days - well tomorrow Im going to mamas house to spend the night - it will be a bit easier for me because its a condo so everything is nearby... easier than me having to come down the stairs and then I cant go up after that again to lie down.
Will do my work at home - thank God for laptops!!! Gosh... I hate this! I really really have to lose a lot of weight so that I can stop going through all this. Poor Ivan wanted to take me out tonight but instead we just ordered Dominos... sigh... He is really upset with me.. not because plans are spoilt but because I am not taking care of myself.. Well he is right... And I really need to do something about it!
It was fun. We havent hung out in a long time and I haven't seen Devan since my wedding in 2007!!! So it was good to meet up and hangout again like the good old days. Too bad dear Jason couldn't make it.
Loraine and I started out with huge frozen margaritas - Melonberry flavor which was pretty good. Then we moved on to a couple of tequila shots and then mojitos. Ivan had 4 beers and got a bit high.. he made the night quite fun with his funny stories and nonsense talks :-)
Biggest mistake I made, I sat for almost 4 hours - only getting up once to go to the ladies. Even with the pain, I just pushed it aside. So what happens? Well, today is Valentines Day and I have absolutely spoilt my darling's surprise for me... Why? My back pain today was even worse! I almost passed out this morning dragging myself to the bathroom. The pain was so intense and it spread down my right leg. When I tried to walk, of course I have to use my right leg, I saw stars... It was pretty pretty bad.. ! I called hubby (who was on his way back from Slim River) crying! I just kept praying and asking GOD for his Strength and Healing. I managed to drag myself downstairs and just stuffed a slice of the daging salai so that i could down my meds. The painkillers helped a bit - thank God!
So anyway, Mama and Rayna came over. Rayna had to take pictures for an audition for some ad so Ivan took the pictures for her. It was quite funny seeing her carrying Mama! After a couple of hours, we went out for lunch. We went to this new Japanese restaurant, Rakuzen in SS15. There are 4 Jap restaurants in a row - I have no idea how they make business with such stiff competition! Anyway, it was a good choice. The food was good and even the desserts were good. I had to stand a few times because of the pain but I made it through.
After that, Ivan dropped Mama and I off at the chiropractors while he and Rayna went to Carrefour. Gosh.. after the first 30 minutes of the treatment, getting off the bed was torture. Mama had to help me up and the pain was so bad again. I had to hold on to the wall as I slowly inched my way to the doctors room... and there the torture continued. Doctor Andre had to adjust my back and press on my sore areas... I literally screamed a few times!
Doc says I have to stay off my feet and lie down and rest my back so he has told me that I have to stay home the next few days - so I wont be going to work on Monday and Tuesday... sigh.. I have so much to do!!! :-( He said the fact that I have been going to work, sitting in chairs for long hours and going out has of course delayed the healing...yeah I know I am an idiot!
So anyway, I have to stay put the next few days - well tomorrow Im going to mamas house to spend the night - it will be a bit easier for me because its a condo so everything is nearby... easier than me having to come down the stairs and then I cant go up after that again to lie down.
Will do my work at home - thank God for laptops!!! Gosh... I hate this! I really really have to lose a lot of weight so that I can stop going through all this. Poor Ivan wanted to take me out tonight but instead we just ordered Dominos... sigh... He is really upset with me.. not because plans are spoilt but because I am not taking care of myself.. Well he is right... And I really need to do something about it!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Half way through
Today is Day 4 in Manila.. I am enjoying myself here but I do miss my darling dearly and of course my home.. Surprisingly I also miss the office .... the people, the familiarity....
Lorraine sent me an email with a picture of the producers, Anisa and Nonie with a message about missing me. I was so touched by that email. I think that this is the first time in my stint at Comfori that people in the office have actually done something like that. I mean yes some of them before have celebrated my birthday and also bought me a welcome back cake after my wedding, but this... this is different.
So Monday I went back at 12am... came to work on Tuesday at 9am... busy day as usual and a lot of things to take care off. But i liked it. Jean started telling me about the spirits that haunt our office and this building. It really freaked me out. Eric(the building supervisor)treated Jean and I to Starbucks and as we sat there and chatted he also added on about the stories in his last 8 years working here.
It seems there are a few spirits here and a few of the staff have seen them and also other tenants of the building :
a. A small boy running around the office
b. An American in a blue suit walking thru walls
c. the freakiest one - an old lady appears in front of you and just stands there with her head bowed
Gosh I was really freaked out... When I went back to the hotel that night - i couldnt sleep the whole night. I ended up putting on all the lights in the room...
So half dead I went to work yesterday at 8am. And I told Jean that there was no way I was going back to my hotel that night.. so what I did was work until 4pm then I went back to the hotel and slept for 2 and a half hours and then came back to the office and worked through the night with the US team. I made Jean follow me to the toilet everytime I needed to go.. ahahaha!
That was an experience!!! I felt like i was having a hangover. my head was so heavy and my eyes were burning. At about 12.45am Jean and I went to Starbucks to buy coffee... i desperately needed it.. didnt help much though.
At about 2am i lay down on the couch and tried to sleep but lo and behold earlier during the day I pulled my back muscle so i was in pain and i finally gave up and came back on to the computer.
At least I had the people here to keep me awake by discussing work and stuff... Mmarc went to 7-E to buy food so I got him to buy a bottle of Orange Vodka which we will drink tomorrow night...!
So anyways, I went back to the hotel about 6.45am this morning, slept until 10am and then after having my shower, I realised I missed breakfast. Oh well. I went to the hair saloon across the street to get my hair washed and blown and decided to do a pedicure and a foot spa. Can you believe it for the pedicure, footspa and hair wash and blow, all i paid was RM38!!! And I have to say the girl did a great job with the pedicure and footspa.
I went to office from there at about 1somethingpm. Grabbed a meal on the go and a caramel machiato from 7-E and started working. Went to Maybank at 3pm to finalise the banking stuff then Jean and I went to Landmark. I bought some stuff for my sis and myself and then we went to buy fans for the office and then back to office. We grabbed dinner from 7-E again and are carrying on with work.
The US team are slowly trickling in. They start work at 9pm so all should be here soon. It's going to be another all nighter with them... Hope I dont pass out!! hahahaha
Till the next time....
Lorraine sent me an email with a picture of the producers, Anisa and Nonie with a message about missing me. I was so touched by that email. I think that this is the first time in my stint at Comfori that people in the office have actually done something like that. I mean yes some of them before have celebrated my birthday and also bought me a welcome back cake after my wedding, but this... this is different.
So Monday I went back at 12am... came to work on Tuesday at 9am... busy day as usual and a lot of things to take care off. But i liked it. Jean started telling me about the spirits that haunt our office and this building. It really freaked me out. Eric(the building supervisor)treated Jean and I to Starbucks and as we sat there and chatted he also added on about the stories in his last 8 years working here.
It seems there are a few spirits here and a few of the staff have seen them and also other tenants of the building :
a. A small boy running around the office
b. An American in a blue suit walking thru walls
c. the freakiest one - an old lady appears in front of you and just stands there with her head bowed
Gosh I was really freaked out... When I went back to the hotel that night - i couldnt sleep the whole night. I ended up putting on all the lights in the room...
So half dead I went to work yesterday at 8am. And I told Jean that there was no way I was going back to my hotel that night.. so what I did was work until 4pm then I went back to the hotel and slept for 2 and a half hours and then came back to the office and worked through the night with the US team. I made Jean follow me to the toilet everytime I needed to go.. ahahaha!
That was an experience!!! I felt like i was having a hangover. my head was so heavy and my eyes were burning. At about 12.45am Jean and I went to Starbucks to buy coffee... i desperately needed it.. didnt help much though.
At about 2am i lay down on the couch and tried to sleep but lo and behold earlier during the day I pulled my back muscle so i was in pain and i finally gave up and came back on to the computer.
At least I had the people here to keep me awake by discussing work and stuff... Mmarc went to 7-E to buy food so I got him to buy a bottle of Orange Vodka which we will drink tomorrow night...!
So anyways, I went back to the hotel about 6.45am this morning, slept until 10am and then after having my shower, I realised I missed breakfast. Oh well. I went to the hair saloon across the street to get my hair washed and blown and decided to do a pedicure and a foot spa. Can you believe it for the pedicure, footspa and hair wash and blow, all i paid was RM38!!! And I have to say the girl did a great job with the pedicure and footspa.
I went to office from there at about 1somethingpm. Grabbed a meal on the go and a caramel machiato from 7-E and started working. Went to Maybank at 3pm to finalise the banking stuff then Jean and I went to Landmark. I bought some stuff for my sis and myself and then we went to buy fans for the office and then back to office. We grabbed dinner from 7-E again and are carrying on with work.
The US team are slowly trickling in. They start work at 9pm so all should be here soon. It's going to be another all nighter with them... Hope I dont pass out!! hahahaha
Till the next time....
Monday, February 2, 2009
In Philippines
It is 10.33pm.. I'm in Manila and I'm in the office..
I got here yesterday at about 4pm...luckily at about 6 something in the morning I remembered that I could do the web check in and change my seat. So i got up at about 7am and went to do it. Thank God that i managed to get a seat at the front near the exit. I found out later that the flight was only half full (By God's Grace I am sure since every trip I have made to Philippines on a Sunday flight is always full!)
So the flight itself was ok. A bit bumpy due to turbulence but other than that ok. They showed High School Musical 3... Since I got out of the plane fast I avoided the long long looonng queue that the Manila airport is famous for, got my baggage even quicker (it was among the first 10 bags out the ramp), grabbed a cab and got to the hotel. Truly truly Gods grace!
So got rested up and then met Jean to do a bit of shopping. She took me to Market Market another mall that I havent been too before. But besides being a mall, they have an open air area with fountains for people to hang around and some interesting stalls. I bought this Yema bun which is basically buns with condensed milk in it.. sugar overload man! Then we went to have Philipino food for dinner which of course consisted mainly of pork!
After that we just walked around for awhile then I came back to the hotel. Watched Beautiful Girl - the movei starring Fran Drescher and that girl from Hairspray (i forgot her name). It was a nice show. Tried to sleep but had trouble - because my baby not with me la :-( I got up at about 6am+. After having my shower and getting dressed, I went down for breakfast and then caught a cab at about 7.40am. Reached office in 10 minutes and was amazed to realise that one of my staff was here at 6.15am! Wow!
So the rest of the day was a busy day of meetings, emails, checking up on work, dealing with issues. I couldnt resist so at about 10am I went down to Starbucks (which is at the ground floor or our building) and grabbed a Strawberries and Cream Frap! I tasted it last time I came. Its delish!!! I dont know why they dont have it in Msia!... Oh well...At 1pm, Jean and I went to PLDT (the local Telecoms) to get the phone lines sorted out. We got back to the office at 2.30pm and went to Paseo Centre to have lunch at Inangsal, one of their franchise chicken places.
Then back to office where Jet the accountant was supposed to come see us at 3pm but she only showed up at almost 6pm!!! Anyway, I was too busy to notice or care.
So after my meeting with her, I carried on with work. The APAC team finished their sales brief with Wayne and then went home. At about 7pm+ Jean and I went to Landmark. I bought a pair of jeans and a top. Checked out a couple of bookstores and then we came back. I grabbed some McD's and came back up to the office to continue with work. The US team were here already.
Had a discussion with Marc, ate my dinner, had a meeting with the US Sales team, another discussion with Marc and Jen and now blogging.
I'll probably go back about 12am I think. I dont think I can last longer. I am pretty stonned at the moment. I am dying for a caramel macchiato but I have got to keep my Starbucks to a limit of one a day :)
I got here yesterday at about 4pm...luckily at about 6 something in the morning I remembered that I could do the web check in and change my seat. So i got up at about 7am and went to do it. Thank God that i managed to get a seat at the front near the exit. I found out later that the flight was only half full (By God's Grace I am sure since every trip I have made to Philippines on a Sunday flight is always full!)
So the flight itself was ok. A bit bumpy due to turbulence but other than that ok. They showed High School Musical 3... Since I got out of the plane fast I avoided the long long looonng queue that the Manila airport is famous for, got my baggage even quicker (it was among the first 10 bags out the ramp), grabbed a cab and got to the hotel. Truly truly Gods grace!
So got rested up and then met Jean to do a bit of shopping. She took me to Market Market another mall that I havent been too before. But besides being a mall, they have an open air area with fountains for people to hang around and some interesting stalls. I bought this Yema bun which is basically buns with condensed milk in it.. sugar overload man! Then we went to have Philipino food for dinner which of course consisted mainly of pork!
After that we just walked around for awhile then I came back to the hotel. Watched Beautiful Girl - the movei starring Fran Drescher and that girl from Hairspray (i forgot her name). It was a nice show. Tried to sleep but had trouble - because my baby not with me la :-( I got up at about 6am+. After having my shower and getting dressed, I went down for breakfast and then caught a cab at about 7.40am. Reached office in 10 minutes and was amazed to realise that one of my staff was here at 6.15am! Wow!
So the rest of the day was a busy day of meetings, emails, checking up on work, dealing with issues. I couldnt resist so at about 10am I went down to Starbucks (which is at the ground floor or our building) and grabbed a Strawberries and Cream Frap! I tasted it last time I came. Its delish!!! I dont know why they dont have it in Msia!... Oh well...At 1pm, Jean and I went to PLDT (the local Telecoms) to get the phone lines sorted out. We got back to the office at 2.30pm and went to Paseo Centre to have lunch at Inangsal, one of their franchise chicken places.
Then back to office where Jet the accountant was supposed to come see us at 3pm but she only showed up at almost 6pm!!! Anyway, I was too busy to notice or care.
So after my meeting with her, I carried on with work. The APAC team finished their sales brief with Wayne and then went home. At about 7pm+ Jean and I went to Landmark. I bought a pair of jeans and a top. Checked out a couple of bookstores and then we came back. I grabbed some McD's and came back up to the office to continue with work. The US team were here already.
Had a discussion with Marc, ate my dinner, had a meeting with the US Sales team, another discussion with Marc and Jen and now blogging.
I'll probably go back about 12am I think. I dont think I can last longer. I am pretty stonned at the moment. I am dying for a caramel macchiato but I have got to keep my Starbucks to a limit of one a day :)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Casting my burdens
It has been another really loooong and exhausting week again... I am really mentally tired and the past few weeks really have been a strain. Dealing with issues and difficult people.... you know sometimes it just amazes me 1) how childish people are 2) why some people hv such big egos 3) why some ppl think so great of themselves and don't see that it is wrong to treat others badly 4) why some people have 2 faces and then accuse others of hvng 2 faces 5) why i always end up being conned by this 2 faced people!!!
Nowadays, I find myself just looking forward to the weekend - but then even during the weekend my mind is still on the office and I end up not getting any rest at all. Even though I leave the office everyday at 5.30pm or 6pm, I end up bringing work home which I dont mind. But I also bring back more - worries and issues that just won't stop bugging me. I really am living, eating, breathing and sleeping Comfori!!!! My thoughts during the day are always revolving around the office and every night my dreams are about the office.
It really is exhausting and draining. When I wake up in the morning, I don't feel rested at all because my mind didn't get a break!
I know as a Christian, I should cast all my burdens unto the Lord and leave it in His hands and not worry, but it's really difficult to do that! I envy and admire people like Aunty Rosie who are able to just let go of the issues and concerns and troubles and leave it to God and not harp on it or worry about it all the time! Why is it so hard for me to do that??!!
I really need to try to stop dwelling and start trusting more and more. Lord Jesus, I truly need your guidance.!
Nowadays, I find myself just looking forward to the weekend - but then even during the weekend my mind is still on the office and I end up not getting any rest at all. Even though I leave the office everyday at 5.30pm or 6pm, I end up bringing work home which I dont mind. But I also bring back more - worries and issues that just won't stop bugging me. I really am living, eating, breathing and sleeping Comfori!!!! My thoughts during the day are always revolving around the office and every night my dreams are about the office.
It really is exhausting and draining. When I wake up in the morning, I don't feel rested at all because my mind didn't get a break!
I know as a Christian, I should cast all my burdens unto the Lord and leave it in His hands and not worry, but it's really difficult to do that! I envy and admire people like Aunty Rosie who are able to just let go of the issues and concerns and troubles and leave it to God and not harp on it or worry about it all the time! Why is it so hard for me to do that??!!
I really need to try to stop dwelling and start trusting more and more. Lord Jesus, I truly need your guidance.!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
TGIF tomorrow!
It really has been an exhausting week...mentally exhausting! There has been so many issues and stuff to take care off in the office and it has really drained me. I am so glad that tomorrow is Friday.
Let's see what happened over this week? It was Lorraine's birthday on Tuesday so we took her out for lunch. A bit of a black cloud over the day for her as her granddad is in the hospital but we are keeping him in prayer and believing in a recovery. Poor girl, it must be really tough for her.. new job, assignment pressures and her granddad.
I won't be attending the Train the Trainer 1 week training that I am supposed to go for next week. I need to be in the office to take care of things so have pushed my attendance to the February dates. I'm glad though. With work being so hectic and next week being the week before CNY, there is just so much to be done.
Talking about CNY, Ivan and I went to Car4 on Tuesday to buy the stuff to put into the bags for exchange... i dont know what it is supposed to be called la...... Changed money for ang paos and still more to change!! I still have to put them in the envelopes and sort the bags out... I am so happy though that we dont have to travel to Ulu Yam on the 1st day of CNY because Ah Sok's family will be coming down instead. And even though we are still going to Ipoh on the 2nd day, we are only going to be staying one night.
We got good news today! Ivan and his partners got an investor confirmed so ... YAY YAY YAY!!! I am so thrilled and happy - praise God for he is truly Awesome!!! So now they can get down to serious business! wooo hoooo!!
Tomorrow I'm gonna be at the Career Fair in Midvalley until 7pm. I hope that we get some good people and are able to hire a good group of people for our sales teams! We need lots of good people to hit our targets this year!
OK, I gotta stop thinking about work.. that is all I have been doing since 5th January - thinking, dreaming, living work non stop. I need rest!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
First week of the year
The first week of the new year is over. It was an interesting week, and a very challenging one too. There was a lot to catch up with at work but it was good to be back in the flow.
I finally took down all the Christmas decorations yesterday. But the house is in a mess... well the hall and dining area that is! A lot of clearing up and cleaning up to be done - I plan to get it done before Chinese New Year!
It is back to work again tomorrow. I foresee a very very busy week next week. I have a lot to sort out for the Philippines office and also recruitment and hiring for the KL team. I just find that sometimes I can get a bit overwhelmed with the work and then I have a brain freeze!
Today Pastor David gave a good message on Abundance of His Grace. Something important that I need to focus on. I was also reminded on the importance of building my relationship with GOD. Something so obvious but many of us tend to take for granted; me included.
After church, we went over to Mama's for lunch. We hung out for a while, had a lie down and then Shayna came and we went to the gym to get some exercise. Now we are back home watching Alvin and the Chipmunks for the umpteenth time. Not a very eventful day but a good day.
I am going to turn in early tonight so that I will be recharged for the next week!
I finally took down all the Christmas decorations yesterday. But the house is in a mess... well the hall and dining area that is! A lot of clearing up and cleaning up to be done - I plan to get it done before Chinese New Year!
It is back to work again tomorrow. I foresee a very very busy week next week. I have a lot to sort out for the Philippines office and also recruitment and hiring for the KL team. I just find that sometimes I can get a bit overwhelmed with the work and then I have a brain freeze!
Today Pastor David gave a good message on Abundance of His Grace. Something important that I need to focus on. I was also reminded on the importance of building my relationship with GOD. Something so obvious but many of us tend to take for granted; me included.
After church, we went over to Mama's for lunch. We hung out for a while, had a lie down and then Shayna came and we went to the gym to get some exercise. Now we are back home watching Alvin and the Chipmunks for the umpteenth time. Not a very eventful day but a good day.
I am going to turn in early tonight so that I will be recharged for the next week!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Wow....
I have no idea why i put the above title.. i couldnt think of anything else. I am pretty tired. It is 6pm and i am in the office still getting stuff done. I decided to take a moment to just pen a few words down... well type a few words down.
Yesterday was my company's management kick off meeting which we did at the Summit Hotel. All in all, it went well and it was an interesting day. I had fun at our after meeting dinner at Sawasde Thai Restaurant. Only 7 of us went though. Very cute Philipino waiters serving us :-) But poor Jean had stomach trouble today. Guess the spicyness of our food is getting to her :-)
Today was very tiring since it is the first day in the office since I started my Christmas leave on the 19th of December! So much to catch up on and issues to handle and meetings to handle. I had to postpone our monthly management meeting because I didnt have enough time. Plus we have the interview at the US embassy tomorrow morning for our US visas and only today I find out about the multiple documents that I need to bring along so I have been trying to get that all done as well. Pray that the interviews go well and that Ivan and I and Lawrence & Mel get our visas approved immediately!!
Lorraine joined Comfori today. I didn't have much of a chance to catch up with her because I have just been so so busy. I won't have time tomorrow either because i will only be back from the US embassy after lunch. I should be able to catch up with her for lunch on Thursday though. I feel so bad!!!
Ivan and I are taking Jean and Janueary to Sunway Pyramid today. We were supposed to do that last night but the girls were wiped out after the training. So after Sunway Pyramid, we have not decided where to take them yet. Ivan wants to take them to Section 17 for his favourite tong sui. We will see how it goesla..
Yesterday was my company's management kick off meeting which we did at the Summit Hotel. All in all, it went well and it was an interesting day. I had fun at our after meeting dinner at Sawasde Thai Restaurant. Only 7 of us went though. Very cute Philipino waiters serving us :-) But poor Jean had stomach trouble today. Guess the spicyness of our food is getting to her :-)
Today was very tiring since it is the first day in the office since I started my Christmas leave on the 19th of December! So much to catch up on and issues to handle and meetings to handle. I had to postpone our monthly management meeting because I didnt have enough time. Plus we have the interview at the US embassy tomorrow morning for our US visas and only today I find out about the multiple documents that I need to bring along so I have been trying to get that all done as well. Pray that the interviews go well and that Ivan and I and Lawrence & Mel get our visas approved immediately!!
Lorraine joined Comfori today. I didn't have much of a chance to catch up with her because I have just been so so busy. I won't have time tomorrow either because i will only be back from the US embassy after lunch. I should be able to catch up with her for lunch on Thursday though. I feel so bad!!!
Ivan and I are taking Jean and Janueary to Sunway Pyramid today. We were supposed to do that last night but the girls were wiped out after the training. So after Sunway Pyramid, we have not decided where to take them yet. Ivan wants to take them to Section 17 for his favourite tong sui. We will see how it goesla..
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Visitors from Philippines
Today Ivan and I went to the airport to pick up my two colleagues from our Philippines office.. Jean and Janueary. I was getting quite worried coz it took them almost an hour to get out. Something I did not expect as everytime I come back from Manila it only takes me about 15 to 20 minutes to come out!! Oh well... There was a lot of security around .. you know those guys in blue uniforms carrying big guns/rifles things... wonder why there seems to be more of them around than usual.
So anyway, we took them to Restoran Bak Kut Teh Ah Foong to try out the food. They want to try all kinds of Malaysian food so Ivan and I are planning to take them for Banana Leaf lunch tomorrow and I showed them where to get Nasi Lemak for breakfast. Guess its going to be a food fest the next few days :-)!!!
Friday, January 2, 2009
Happy New Year 2009!!
Happy New Year Everyone!! A new year with new opportunities, new chances and a new beginning...
Every year I come up with resolutions and every year I fail to keep them. So for this year, my family and I decided to do something a bit different. We came up with our own new years resolutions and resolutions for each other too and we shared them with each other and will help each other to achieve them. At the end of 2009, we will review them together to see what we achieved.
So here are my New Years resolutions for 2009:
1. To come down to 65kg in weight (don't ask me what I weigh now!!!)
2. To clean out my 2nd guest room (this room has been turned into a store room since we moved in here in Aug 2007 and i can hardly open the door now!)
3. To spend time daily in quiet time and prayer and reading the bible (something that I failed to do last year :-( )
4. To cut down on unnecessary expenses
5. To save more money
6. To be more positive and focus on the good things in my life
7. To be more patient
8. To pay off my credit card bills
I have started working on my resolutions and I plan to stick to them. Pray for me ya!! I'll keep this blog updated on my progress...!!!
Every year I come up with resolutions and every year I fail to keep them. So for this year, my family and I decided to do something a bit different. We came up with our own new years resolutions and resolutions for each other too and we shared them with each other and will help each other to achieve them. At the end of 2009, we will review them together to see what we achieved.
So here are my New Years resolutions for 2009:
1. To come down to 65kg in weight (don't ask me what I weigh now!!!)
2. To clean out my 2nd guest room (this room has been turned into a store room since we moved in here in Aug 2007 and i can hardly open the door now!)
3. To spend time daily in quiet time and prayer and reading the bible (something that I failed to do last year :-( )
4. To cut down on unnecessary expenses
5. To save more money
6. To be more positive and focus on the good things in my life
7. To be more patient
8. To pay off my credit card bills
I have started working on my resolutions and I plan to stick to them. Pray for me ya!! I'll keep this blog updated on my progress...!!!
Blogging for memories
I have finally started a blog!!
I was recently doing some cleaning and found some old diaries. Reading them brought back a lot of memories. The problem with keeping diaries is that it takes up too much space and i always lose them. So i decided to start this blog to use as an online journal. Much easier isn't it? Now i just have to make sure that I keep updating it!
I was recently doing some cleaning and found some old diaries. Reading them brought back a lot of memories. The problem with keeping diaries is that it takes up too much space and i always lose them. So i decided to start this blog to use as an online journal. Much easier isn't it? Now i just have to make sure that I keep updating it!
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