Stress

Work has been stressful the past few months. And now, some things are happening in the office which is just making me feel uncomfortable. My boss has lost trust in me, for God knows what reason (even his wife doesn't know why!) and it is hard for me. I don't like and don't feel comfortable to work in an environment like this - its hard for me because now I keep second guessing myself and keep trying to figure out what it is I did to make my boss not trust me. The reason he gave was due to an ex-mgmt staff who lied to us and left us a small mess, so now he finds it hard to trust all management team members. But I find that hard to accept because 1) it wasn't that big of an issue to cause this reaction, 2) that guy was with the company for 1 year and I have been here for almost 4 years!, 3) I have never done anything to give reason to distrust me.

It is frustrating for me. I know I shouldnt be focusing on the negative and just do my work but it isn't easy. I used to feel like a part of the family at the office, but now I just don't feel comfortable anymore... it is very sad.

And of course there is the stress of my studies. I am doing Comparative Law and Team Leadership this semester. I have one leadership assignment due this Friday, the Law online test due on Tuesday, 3 law essays to finish by mid October and another 2 leadership assignments due in 2 weeks and in one month respectively!!! Yikes!!

Then... yes there is more!!! My back is giving me trouble again!!! EEEEEEE!!! I cant exercise - Well I didnt for 6 weeks but on Sunday and yesterday i just went on the treadmill for half an hour. I could only walk, not jog or run but the pain does intensify after so I can't do it everyday. This is so irritating! Just walking from my office to Subway (which is a 3 or 4 min walk) really flared up the pain. This is annoying.

My health - I took the blood and urine tests last weekend and also did ultrasounds and an ECG. The test results I will get this weekend. The ECG was fine. The ultrasound had a bit of concern so I will know more with the blood test results.

I need to destress!!