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So its been awhile and dear Lorraine told me to blog.. :-)

Remember all the back pain I suffered for 3 weeks in Feb? Well i basically wasted my time going to the chiropractor. The accupuncture I dont regret because they helped reduce the swelling but I finally found out the reason for the pain.

I took my mom to SJMC on Saturday (28th March) because something happened to her. She had severe pain in her back and leg and couldnt walk on her leg and she was throwing up the whole night. So we took her to the ER. While waiting for the doctor (who is also my Uncle) to come, my back pain just kept getting worse and worse. I couldnt sit, I couldnt stand, so i was basically bent over leaning on my moms bed in the ER.

So i ask my uncle for a jab and then lie down on a bed for awhile but after half an hour, there is still no relief. So my uncle says that I have to get an MRI scan, gives me another stronger jab and asks Ivan to get me admitted.

That was at 10 something in the morning. I was left in the ER until 4.30pm because the hospital was full and they couldnt get me a room! In between the technician came and took me for the MRI. I had a panic attack because I felt my arm brush against the side of the machine and then I stupidly opened my eyes. It really felt like I was inside a coffin. The technician had to take me out of the tunnel and give me awhile to calm down and then he agreed to take me out every 5 minutes (after each slide).

So anyway, I hate being stuck in hospitals. It sucks. Ivan and my mom in law came that night and the rest of the time I was alone. The next day, my uncle says that I cant go home because the scan showed that I had 2 slipped discs in my back and i was a borderline for surgery.

I ended up being stuck in hospital until Thursday! Lorraine came twice to visit and she was really great! Aunty Sharm and Dhanisha came, Aunty Narindar came, Melissa and Intan came, then on Wednesday, Tracy, Mei, Jessica and Jun and then Wayne, Eric and Mawar came to visit. Of course my darling father came every day. Rayna couldnt come because she had to take care of mama and Shayna n KP were too busy with work :-(

So anyway, today is Saturday. I am staying at my moms place for a few days because its a condo so I dont have to walk up and down stairs.

However, I have been moving about which I shouldnt be doing and the pain is bad. I have to be a good girl and just stay in bed but its hard. I guess its a good thing Uncle kept me in the hospital that long. Actually to be honest, I feel now (even though I was in cloud nine when he said I could go home on Thursday), that I should have stayed in the hospital another day or two. At least I wouldnt have moved much.

Oh well.... I have been working from home. Su Leng and Cynthia came over for a few hours yesterday for a meeting. I dont think Lawrence is too happy with me being out of the office.. sigh

On a brighter note, Jason Victor came to visit me yesterday. I havent seen him in soooo long so it was good to catch up. I cant believe that we have been good friends for 12 years now..

I am feeling alone, and lost, and worried... I feel like I dont have many people that I can talk too and be myself with and share my thoughts with. I miss Bobo. I havent seen her in one year! Once my back is healed, I am so going to meet up with her..

ok my back is hurting.. im signing off now

I was glad they came because I was going crazy being alone!